- November 2016
- Januari 2016
- Mars 2014
- Januari 2014
- April 2013
- Mars 2013
- Februari 2013
- December 2012
- Augusti 2012
- Juni 2012
- Maj 2012
- April 2012
- Mars 2012
- Februari 2012
- Januari 2012
- December 2011
- November 2011
- Oktober 2011
- September 2011
- Augusti 2011
- Juli 2011
- Juni 2011
- Maj 2011
- April 2011
- Mars 2011
- Februari 2011
- Januari 2011
- December 2010
- November 2010
- Oktober 2010
- September 2010
- Augusti 2010
- Juni 2010
- April 2010
- Mars 2010
- Februari 2010
- Januari 2010
- December 2009
- November 2009
- Oktober 2009
- September 2009
- Augusti 2009
- Juli 2009
- Juni 2009
- Maj 2009
- April 2009
- Mars 2009
- Februari 2009
i believe in destiny. and also hakuna matata
A potpourri of my life right now
Feelings are driving me mad. Being in love like the real deal in love when your love is living in a country far far away is exhausting.
I lost my mojo when I moved away from you, appearantly you lost yours when I moved away too. We have been struggling separatly for about a year and 3 months in finding ourselves in the new thing called commited distance relationship.
I miss those nights where I would sleep having my nose in your neck, I miss them so much that I don't remember your scent anymore.
I miss those days where we use to complain about being bored or standing still in our life, not realising those moments where the happy ones. We were happy then, endlessly happy in every single second we spent together and they were so many. We were laughing then, kissing, loving, sharing, cheering and listening to oneanothers souls and oneanothers hearts.
I miss being happy, thus a big part of me don't remember how it is being happy when you are so far, because my happiness is defined of being where you are.
Some days it helps knowing that today plays an important role in the future that we planed. Although that future still is vaguely transferring more far in the horizon.
Your mojo is resting inside of me and mine is in within you. The secret to getting through is coming back to me and you.
Without our mojo nothing can be achieved and our happy days feel decived.
I'm fighting for me and you every day and every night and we are holding on tight. This storm will not break what we are, it doesnt matter that we currently are so far.
Love is such a beautiful thing,
Weekend at Work
A new era of motivation have been introduced by the people who run this world. as the world is slowly opening up to accept spirituality, new age and solitude, as the world starts to accept the non traditional medicines who are actually the most traditional ones, we are to reach a new understanding of life itself and of wellness.
It is somewhat a long distance of travelling understanding to still reach before we get there, and there is a lot of war and corruption in the world as we speak. But the balance will be equal as the right time comes. Bare with the world as it is in a phase of correcting and balancing again. The phase of change and adaption just began.
Praise diversity
Love is such a beautiful thing
streaming movies
But Ive been thinking lately, there is a lot of people out there making a lot of money on bloging, and hence I am not working at this stage, inbetween jobs, or yeah, you get it. Why not blog again, at least once in a blue moon, (being realistic). Then I may have a shot on getting rich at it. Lol.
Also lately this with streaming or watching movies online, and series, tv shows, news, sports events. You can more or less find everything online somewhere, if you just know how and where to search. And since few months back when discovering this, I have been through all episodes of glee, several criminal detective tv show series, both swedish and international, most of the new movies available, which have been of interest. Most of the times, I have been doing it alone as well.
It didn't take long before I was longing for it, and this is DANGEROUS. Watching tv and movies, became an addiction. Laying in before falling asleep with a movie, eating breakfast while watching a movie or a few episodes of the favorite tv show. Addiction, laziness, it did not give me anything. I only felt worse.
Please, those 2 readers I have, this is my personal opinions of course, but I believe strongly that watching a lot of tv, movies, tv shows, etc. does only contribute to negativity, depression, obesity, dissatisfaction with your self, sadness and health problems. You will start subconsciously to compare yourself with the life of characters you spend hours with daily, fictionious characters, and your life, (laying on the sofa watching tv shows), may seem pretty dull in comparison. This is only an idea I have, but it seem to be proven in my life, at least.
Days im not speeding with tv, movies, tv shows at all, are my happy days. I have meet friends, family, maybe taken walks, went to do some sports, spent long hours baking, cooking nice food, writing on my book, doing embroidery, meditate, these days are my happy days, so filled with love, and mindfullness, I fall asleep with a smile on my lips, and I have a good night, with deep undisturbed dreamless sleep.
In a big contra for my days with a lot of movies, tv shows and streaming. Those days I eat junkfood, constantly tired, I have a worried night, difficulties falling asleep, I feel fat, lazy and unproductive, unhappy. And when gotten this things put in perspective, it is so easy to see, what ways work for me.
So from now on, every time I feel like streaming a movie, I will do squats, meditate, blog or go through new chapters on the book.
Im gonna get rich bloging, start following me and you'll see.
Get happy, or die trying.
Sverige, beautiful homeland
Ive joined you for a few months now. Joined friends, family, countryside, city, diversity. Staying in my girl room, with lilac ribbons on the wallpapers. I got so much stuff now, that my room is stuffed nearly. But I do live her for some time now, around a month more probably.
It is Recharge and Refill on energy, feelings, experiences, memories, mind-blowing gratitude. It is Reset on new habits, old habits I use to have and that shall come back, healthy lifestyle, good food, writing, I love writing, reading, swimming, walking, laughing, meditatin. Reset on all these. From Zero to Hero again.
I miss my diversity of the world, but I don't mind every single minute right now, overwhelmed with love, hugs, kisses. The past 4 days I was pretty sick, but besides from that...
I am normally sick very seldom, and I mean very very seldom... I cant remember last time I were sick so I had to lay in bed for days. Odd feeling, but its nearly gone completely now.
Well, so thats it. I will not even mention that I shall try to be active bloging, because every time i try to mention my restart, i fail to keep it going. So lets see when I m in it again. Hope to be soon again, and we might actually get some readers going here.
Have a good one... Nite that is.
Sick - 36h to recover
Mixing herbal remedies with scientific ones, and a lot of movies and sleep, i think ill be back on track for the weekend. Because at work its gonna be a busy one.
I have a very close friend at home who have been sick with something very serious, and it is effecting me. I keep him in mind constantly, and I am keeping him in my prayers.
We must keep life the treasure it is, and value it every day, every little glimpse of happiness, we must capture it. Because hard days arrives, where everything turns upside down. We must survive the though times, and it may be easier if we have valued the happy ones. And to handle though times with a positive attitude, the way he is, I admire it. Always on my mind.
easy like a sunday morning
Anger - it is not necessary
Solitude
It came to me over and over again. I mean I have known the word before, I have practiced it before. I am seeking the answers within the silence sometimes, and normally I find them.
But now the solitude and the need of solitude have come all over me via my subconscious. To solve issues that I suddenly found that I had.
I practice visualization and meditation regularly to irregularly. Many times without focus, only to empty my mind before I will sleep. But this time I have a focus.
To make the right choices in life, you have to get in touch with your soul. To do this you must experience solitude, which most people are afraid of, because in the silence you hear the truth and know the solutions. - Deepak
The introduction to the book project.
Well as it comes to the book, I am as mentioned rewritting it to english. I am giving you a preview of the introduction... Im happy to recieve feedback. ♥
This is my story, a story telling about my development, describing my challenges and how my vantage point from where I’ve seen and experienced the world have been constantly changed, turned upside down and have come to a place I find completely accurate. All I have ever known before all of sudden were or is completely out of line.
When I started my journey, someone told me to a write a diary to remember, and to keep forever and for always. For myself to remember the wonderful journey and my thoughts while it was about to happen and during it. I took it a step further, as my journey has been so inspiring and amazing and spiritually developing, I wanted to share it. If it reaches you and inspire you a thousands of what the major impact it has had on me, it will be amazing.
I was born in Europe during the 80ths; I grew up in a very loving family. I grew up into what was a loving, caring and beautiful environment. Creating me to be a very loving, understanding and grateful child and also youth. During my childhood I had a dream, I constantly had. I had a curiosity to see. We went travelling for holidays a few times, and I saw other countries, other people and I saw other lives. A wider curiosity was awakening within me, and I knew somehow one day I was going to accomplish my dream. Following a path taking me around our multi cultural and diverse world.
Since I was young I have also had a siren calling me, a siren calling me towards the ocean. The ocean has been a calming media for me always giving me mutual trust and mutual comfort. My parents have told me several times, when I was very young and when we went to a place where the ocean was available, I was always in a hurry, I always needed to go to my ocean, to greet it. I was always in a rush to get close to what many consider big, wild and dangerous. I went there, sat down, and had a breathe with the sea. My mom remember her 4 year old daughter standing in front of a big wild ocean mumbling a phrase, "I am here now."
We may believe that all of us have a story to tell, and all of us do. And this is mine.
When I later went through my education at a university and came close to meditation, and was able to calmly find peace and happiness, to find purpose in daily events, and a deeper understanding and connection with my subconscious was developed. Suddenly I discovered, maybe because I believed in it, or maybe because it existed, a wonderful path created for me. Maybe it did existed because I believed in it, but it was there and I trusted the path that it was meant for me. What was meant to be was going to be.
And I was on my path.
At first during the last university semester and I had a boyfriend, I was thinking to stay, to find a job and a carrier at home. But just as I started to have this thoughts coming to me, the relationship ended, as it was meant to do just at that time.
Via new motivation I googled and I got results. I applied for jobs far away from my comfort zone. I applied for jobs in countries I hadn’t ever hardly heard of. I applied for jobs I knew was in paradise islands far away from normalities I had ever been in, of places I had only seen on pictures. People at Human Resources Offices around the world were writing back to me. I got replies. I never thought that these paths was going to come true. A paradise far away on the other side of the world was writing back to me, informing me that the places had been filled, but they were going to keep my details for the future. I believed he was only friendly and polite. But this with the future it actually happened.
Half a year later, as I was having breakfast with my mom, it did happen. A call travelled half way around the globe to my cellphone. An interview was completed. Unreal, a dream, I was not really sure it had happened. I had to pinch myself. Was it really going to be?
A few calls and interviews more, where I was explaining why I wanted a land in the sea to be my new home. A few calls and interviews more, and it started to happen. Vaccinations, paperwork, summer clothes sale, a constant happiness boost, a new pride over what was going to be accomplished. Committed to my new understanding, a new meditative skill. This was apparently meant to be.
It took little bit over a month, and I was on my way to the airport, and via airport heading to a destination 20 hours away, a destination I had only seen on photos. We celebrated with a big farewell. Friends, previous colleges, family and relatives. They were all there, hugging me, wishing me luck. Sharing my happiness. This wasn’t a common thing. People stayed at home, got an education, a job, house, car, got married, children. Followed their steps, generation after generation. It wasn’t common to go abroad to work. Everyone I loved so hopelessly came to hug me farewell. To take a part of the start of the adventure of their friend, college, relative`s new path.
Believe
I find peace and purpose in my job. It is sometimes sitting at the reception pulling my hair since the guests decide not to show up, not to let us know and not to answer when we call. It is sometimes sitting in my office pulling my hair, because we didn’t get the visas issued on time, and because it is constantly new rules to follow up to get applicants able to leave their home countries. I sometimes sit and pull my hair, because there is ladies obviously calling to do market researches, and I cannot confront them.
I am sometimes doing treatments, and reach inner peace, deliver inner peace and solitude. I am sometimes loving the team so much when they make me proud as I see their and our joint accomplishments. None of my days at work is similar to my previous. They are all different, and I never know when I leave home in the morning what my day will be like. I get new ideas, and I bring them to life, I can see results, and it drives me.
I know in my definition what a perfect spa experience is, and this is my goal, to let every guest reach my definition. My definition have been sat by standards I have partly worked with and experienced myself as a guest. This is my goal, and to let this be widespread and let more and more approach us to reach for this definition.
I will post in this category whenever i blog about spa, inner journeys and rejuvenation.
I bring spa with me home, as it is always scented candles and soft music surrounding me.Meditation and visualization is always near. ♥
If I can have this moment for life. ♥
Traveling
My Job
Well, I am suppose to create a CV- like post here; I am a very spiritual person believing in destiny. Believing in a path that is created for me. Partly also with my job. Every job I have done so far have been very developing and made me grow a lot.
I choosed my carrier or my carrier choosed me, anyway it has worked very well for me. Finishing college with focus on social studies, culture, history, religion and language. After collage I felt lost for some time, started working with hospital cleaning and did a one semester english course at the local university. After a semester i felt that i needed a break from school and did work, mainly work at the hospital disinfectant company for some time. I also did some time as language teacher-substitute at a local high school.
When time passed and I felt it was time for next step, I went to a professional carrier guide and let him to analyze me and recommend some programs for me. It worked so well together we found several programs that I highly believed in. I got accepted to a Spa and Health Consult program at a university a bit far away. I started it and I strongly believed it was meant for me, it was my path. After finishing 2 years later I had plans to try and get a job abroad. I managed to do so, 6 months later I was on my way to paradise.
I worked nearly two years as a Spa Therapist in Maldives. I grew a lot, developed and had an amazing time of my life. I was certain that i had found my path. After my time in paradise I got headhunted for my next journey. And I was hired as Spa Manager, for a property in Qatar. I have nearly completed two years at that property now.
Besides my educations and paid jobs, I had also done a lot of voluntary work for sport clubs. Coaching and being responsible as trainer for children and youths within my region back home. During that time there was a lot of scholarships, courses and sectional training. Pedagogics, physiology, sport injuries, leadership, team building, etc. These times have shaped me as a person, and I have a very wide burning interest for sports, health, fitness and etc. Of developing and being there seeing people inspiring their own life. Being there seeing people improving their world.
ABOUT ME
Well,who am I, and what have life thought me?
Life have thought me that everything is possible. Life has thought me that I meet people for different reasons, and when these reasons have been fulfilled I get separated from these people, with those were the reasons never gets fulfilled will stick together til death do us apart. Life has thought me not to be angry, because anger doesn’t get us anywhere. Life has thought me to appreciate small moments of joy and happiness, because without them life would be useless.
Life has thought me never to show regret, and be grateful every single day. Life has thought me that the world is full of people from different cultures, with different histories and different belief, and that none of them are better than the other. Life has thought me to love the world and to live.
I am a girl or I have started to define myself as a woman nowadays. I live in Middle East currently, I lived in Maldives previously and I was raised in Sweden. I have very loving family and friends, they are proud of me and I am proud of them. What am I more? What defines who we are?
I like clubbing, dancing, playing tennis, I have a huge compassion for my job, I like meditation, visualization and to spend lazy days at home sometimes. Life has thought me never to be bored.
I am in the over middle of my twenties and I have decided that I can do everything I am meant to do. I define my life and my life define me.